My Minds Playing Tricks on Me

Intro: Scarface
I sit alone in my four-cornered room staring at candles
Oh that shit is on? Heh
Let me drop some shit like this here, real smooth
Verse One: Scarface
At night I can't sleep, I toss and turn
Candle sticks in the dark, visions of bodies bein burned
Four walls just starin at a nigga
I'm paranoid, sleepin with my finger on the trigger
My mother's always stressin I ain't livin right
But I ain't going out without a fight
See, everytime my eyes close
I start sweatin, and blood starts comin out my nose
It's somebody watchin the Ak'
But I don't know who it is, so I'm watchin my back
I can see him when I'm deep in the covers
When I awake I don't see the motherfucker
He owns a black hat like I own
A black suit and a cane like my own
Some might say, "Take a chill, B"But fuck that shit!
There's a nigga trying to kill me
I'm poppin in the clip when the wind blows
Every twenty seconds got me peepin out my window
Investigatin the joint for traps
Checkin my telephone for taps
I'm starin at the woman on the corner
It's fucked up when your mind is playin tricks on ya
Verse Two:
Willie D
I make big money, I drive big cars
Everybody know me, it's like I'm a movie star
But late at night, somethin ain't right
I feel I'm being tailed by the same sucker's head lights
Is it that fool that I ran off the block?
Or is it that nigga last week that I shot?
Or is it the one I beat for five thousand dollars
Thought he had 'caine but it was Gold Medal Flour
Reach under my seat, grabbed my popper for the suckers
Ain't no use to me lyin, I was scareder than a motherfucker
Hooked a left into Popeye's and bailed out quick
If it's goin down let's get this shit over with
Here they come, just like I figured
I got my hand on the motherfuckin trigger
What I saw'll make your ass start gigglin
Three black, crippled and crazy senior citizens
I live by the sword
I take my boys everywhere I go, because I'm paranoid
I keep lookin over my shoulder and peepin around corners My mind is playin tricks on me
Verse Three:
ScarfaceDay by day it's more impossible to copeI feel like I'm the one that's doing dope
Can't keep a steady hand because I'm nervous
Every Sunday mornin I'm in service
Prayin for forgiveness
And tryin to find an exit out the business
I know the Lord is lookin at me
But yet and still it's hard for me to feel happy
I often drift while I drive
Havin fatal thoughts of suicide
BANG and get it over with
And then I'm worry-free, but that's bullshit
I got a little boy to look after
And if I died then my child would be a bastard
I had a woman down with me
But to me it seemed like she was down to get me
She helped me out in this shit
But to me she was just another bitch
Now she's back with her mother
Now I'm realizing that I love her
Now I'm feelin lonely
My mind is playin tricks on me
Verse Four: Bushwick Bill
This year Halloween fell on a weekend
Me and Geto Boys are trick-or-treatin
Robbin little kids for bags
Till an old man got behind our ass
So we speeded up the pace
Took a look back, and he was right before our face
He'd be in for a squabble no doubt
So I swung and hit the nigga in his mouth
He was goin down, we figured
But this was no ordinary nigga
He stood about six or seven feet
Now, that's the nigga I'd be seein in my sleep
So we triple-teamed on him
Droppin them motherfuckin B's on him
The more I swung the more blood flew
Then he disappeared and my boys disappeared, too
Then I felt just like a fiend
It wasn't even close to Halloween
It was dark as fuck on the streets
My hands were all bloody, from punchin on the concrete
God damn, homie
My mind is playin tricks on me

The thoughts precisely..................................................................................

Just Give Me a Cool Drink of Water 'for I Diiie

They Went Home

They went home and told their wives,
that never once in all their lives,
had they known a girl like me,
But..... Thye went home.

They Said my house was licking clean,
no word I spoke was ever mean,
I had an air of mystery,
But....they went home

My praises were on all men's lips,
they liked my smile, my wit, my hips,
they'd spend one night, or two or three
But....................................


When I think About Myself

When I think about myself,
I almost laugh myself to death,
My life has been one great big joke
A dance that's walked
A song that's spoke,
I laugh so hard I almost choke
When I think about myself.

Sixty years in these folks' world
The child I works for call me girl
I say "Yes ma'am" for working's sake
Too proud to bend
Too poor to break,
I laugh until my stom,ach ache,
When I think about myself.

My folks can make me split my side,
I laughed so hard I nearly died,
The tales they tell, sound just like lying,
They grow the fruit,
But eat the rind,
I laugh until I satrt to cry,
When I think about my folks.

-------------Maya Angelou

Bonnie and Clyde

I can't wait
I can't wait
[Verse 1]I think of youWhen the morning comes and the nighttime goes away (all day)
Don't you ever think that we won't be okay (no way)
There is nothing stopping me from loving you
Touching and rubbing and kissing and hugging you
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it ain't no stopping itI don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
That's the way that its gonna beI'm in love with you and you in love with me
[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me (I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minuteIt's you and me
[Verse 2]
(I can't wait)
I can't believe That someone like you will love me endlessly (forever)
If this goes our way my love will always be (eternally)
You have set my mind my love my heart so free
Together forever however just you and me
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it aint no stopping it
I don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
Cause that's the way that it's gonna be
I'm in love with you and you're in love with me
[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me (I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me[Bridge](I can't wait)
To have you right next to me
Here by my side(I can't wait)
To kiss and caress you girl
While holding you tight(I can't wait)
Can't imagine life without youIt just ain't right(I can't wait)
I got a whole lot of lovingAnd you gonna get it tonight
[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me (I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
I can't wait
I can't wait
I can't wait

Strategy and Obama

If there is a place I would love to be, it would be the inner circle and the strategy of 'Team Obama'.

I shudder and almost tremble at the amount of brain power that would be sitted in the same room working out the strategy for Obama to win the the race for Presidency.

The myiad of variables, parameters and constants that would be factored into the equation of the winning strategy.

War, Economics, People, Welfare, Health, Education, Religion, Taxes, Sexual Inclinations, Politics, Opinions, Biases, Amenities, Governance, Business, Power .... the list is endless.

I wonder how may hours they sit in meetings and debates.

Wonder how they arrive at conclusions and decisions.

Wonder the process and approach they use in arriving at their strategy.

Internal politics and personal preferences also come into place

They will be like courtiers in the king court, with all the drama attached to it.

The room and margin for error will be so so minimal

What degrees, experience, education, background, disciplines etc will the 'Team Obama' people have?

Do they know they are rewriting the world order? I bet they do.

Bulletproof strategy is what they are trying to build and fashion out.

I would give an arm to be an observer of these proceedings.

God help them and God help me to update my blog regualrly too............

Strategy and the fat smoker

I love strategy, makes my blood rush when I think of it.

David Maister says................

Much of what individuals and firms do in the name of strategic planning is a complete waste of time and about as effective as making New Year’s resolutions. The reasons are the same in both situations. Personally and professionally, we already know that we should do: lose weight, give up smoking, and exercise more. In business, strategic plans are also stuffed with familiar goals: build client relationships, act like team players, and provide fulfilling, motivating careers.

We want the benefits of these things. We know what to do, we know why we should do it, and we know how to do it. Yet most businesses and individuals don’t do what’s good for them.
The problem is that many change efforts are based on the assumption that all you have to do is explain to people that their lives could be better, convince them that the goals are worth going for, and show them how to do it.

But this assumption is patently false. If it were true, there would be no drug addicts, no alcoholics, or bad marriages in the world. “Oh, I see, this behavior’s not good for me? Ah well then, I’ll stop, of course!” What nonsense!

And yet strategic plans and annual speeches by CEOs, managing partners, management consultants, and others continue to adopt this same useless structure: “Look at how fabulous it would be if you were a fit, nonsmoking exerciser, David!” My usual response? “True, but please shut up and go away.”

And that’s the response of most audiences to the manager’s or consultant’s latest vision or strategy: “We knew all this a long time ago. Why don’t you ask us why we don’t do it?” Now there’s an interesting question!

Why We Don’t Do It
The primary reason we do not work at behaviors which we know we need to improve is that the rewards (and pleasure) are in the future; the disruption, discomfort and discipline needed to get there are immediate.

To reach our goals, we must first change our lifestyle and our daily habits now. Then we must summon the courage to keep up the new habits and not yield to all the old familiar temptations.

Then, and only then, we get the benefits later. As human beings, we are not good at delayed gratification. We start self-improvement programs with good intentions, but if they don’t pay off immediately, or if a temptation to depart from the program arises, we abandon our efforts completely—until the next time we pretend to be on the program.

Never a truer word spoken !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Life is what we came to live

Yep, Life is what we came to live,

Life is the primary reason we here are here

We need to live it to the full

Not Friends

Not Family

Not Love

Not Houses, Clothes nor Cars

Not Education

Not Church

Not Work

Life should be balanced mix of all these

None should wipe out the others nor take over

Life is really what we came here to live!!!!!!!!!!

3rd of April (Sis Birthday)

It's my Sister's Birthday today.

They used to call her my twin.

No, I used to call her my twin. I belive she was the twin I lost. So did my grand Mum.

She followed me everywhere, has a name like mine where the only difference was the replacement of my U with an A.

I am just two years older.

Smart girl, very smart actually.

Was a year ahead in secondary school but caught up, while I was faffing around.

Got better grades in mathematics than I got in the first year in University. Couldn't believe it.
I thought my mathematics was fairly decent, now I know better.

Love her like I love myself.

Stayed with me like glue. Polytechnic, Univerity, United Kingdom, what more.

Strong, Stong headed and determined, just like our Mum.

Enterpreneural, very, I must say.

With two kids and a Husband, she is grown in family life for light years ahead of me.

Creative and Dynamic, almost too way off.

God bless her on this day and forever.

Pray her dreams, hopes and aspirations come true.

Pray she get sthe guidiance, support, direction and strenght that she needs in this life.

Happy Birthday dear sister.

I haven't bloged in 58 days. waooooo